with me it wasnt like blanking out or blanking out like someone with alcohol problems would (pass out come to and know or not know what happened. but everyone else around the person has stories of what happened)

for me it was like nothing out of the ordinary was happening. I would get my dissociation feelings of feeling numb, spaced out disconnected then still having that feeling notice I was somewhere else doing something else. for me this was normal so it was normal for me to not pay attention to it and continue on with my life. ok lets see did I do my homework yet yup ok guess I get to go play outside with my friends now, ok did I mop the kitchen floor yet nope guess thats what Im doing now, did I remember to get milk at the store yup there it is ok mashed potatoes for dinner tonight...

same with those I was co conscious with. it was feeling numb and spacy then wow rainy is sitting there with her blanket and Im feeling far away but knowing what Rainy is doing for us. ok now Im still numb and spacy but its my turn to cook dinner so off we go to the kitchen to cook dinner.

my point I was like this since before I was 5 years old so to me it was completely normal to just go on with my life like normal. in other words it wasnt this major traumatic omg I cant remember this or that what is going on what.... it was just how I was and what was my normal.