(((((((((( Everyone )))))))))))

I have been reading each and every response, even peeking in when I'm at work. Your responses are powerful, and I'm working on processing some really hard feelings. I want to answer each of you, and I have to wait a little while because now I have to be functional for a while and manage work, etc. I feel like crying a lot, and I had to put it aside yesterday, and now I have to pull it together again for today. So the part of me that handles professional stuff has stepped in and won't let me work on what I need to here until I have more time, maybe tonight or later this week. I just want to thank you all for your love and concern and caring and insight.

I will say that part of what has really frustrated me is that T said she was primarily psychodynamic when I asked her when we first started, and that was what I wanted, but then she has used mostly other modalities because she said I had enough insight and didn't need her for that, but needed to correct my screwy thinking, etc., but I would try to do a cognitive task in a cognitive way and miss her point because I didn't connect it to the relationship or something like that. I'm really glad that she seems to be going back to the psychodynamic approach now, and I hope we can stay there. Switching around has been confusing and frustrating. I do feel that where we are now is where I need work the most.


Rap