That's a lot of stress and I am so sorry you lost your friend. You seem torn in too many directions. Time alone is crucial but as you said, too much time can be bad. It is unfair of your friends to expect more than you can give, but understandable they will react. Can you mend these friendships and perhaps catch up when you are able?

Glad you are seeing your T, really hope you can get a closer pdoc appointment. Keep us posted. We care.