Thanks.

Waggiedog - I know at one location in town they do top and hysterectomies at the same time. I am not sure if my surgeons will. I meet with hysterectomy surgeon in Jan and top surgeon in March. That is one of the first questions.

Oh and t thinks it is a good idea from the concept of one less anesthesia event. If I can get the surgeons on board, I think I'm going to go for it. I also need to make sure endocrine's plan will keep me of estrogen if they take my ovaries. Managing my hormones comment didn't include how he was thinking about managing them or what he was going to do. So, early in the process.

I also just went through supporting a friend through top surgery. And well it scared me a bit and for a little while I thought, hey binding is not that bad. Then the dysphoria really hit one day when my wife took a picture of me "being all handsome" and I looked at it and saw this old short white woman looking back at me. I can't do anything about the older, short, white part... but I can get the chest I want and possibly some changes to my face to not look so womanly.

I'm still scared of the pain involved of top surgery and how I will deal with getting to t's office 2x week while still having drains in... and not sure how I would deal with 3 wks no t. [see attachment issues 101 ] But yeah, only one life and if I'm going to live it... I've got to live it the way I feel is me.