Yes,it does suck.I have been in your shoes many times,alone on many holidays,no gifts from anyone,etc.

I know it's hard,but think about the positives...if you buy your own gifts,at least they will be things you really want and not things you don't want or need.

You can spend the day doing anything you want,with no other committments to worry about.You can stay in your pj's all day and eat and do whatever you please,whether it's lying on the couch watching Netflix all day or drawing,reading,or whatever it is you enjoy.

I used to get really down and depressed about it,about not having anyone,not having gifts,etc. but then I decided to just think of it as 'my' day,found things to do I enjoy,made the best of it.It works much better than feeling sorry for myself.