Hello all. I hope everyone is well. I went to the psych ER yesterday because my depression got very bad and it was one of the most invalidating experiences I've ever had. They asked about my abuse history (which involves my grandma being sexually inappropriate with me, but just touching and being molested at the age of 5) and they actually cut me off even though they asked me to talk about it. My grandma is also homophobic and she said, "I don't approve of what you do but I don't dislike you". She's said some disgustingly graphic homophobic things to me and even inquired about my sex life, saying "If you've never had sex then you can't be gay". Anyways, at the ER they asked about my relationships to family members and I said me and my grandma aren't close (for reasons already mentioned) but my mom and I are very close. The doctor said, "Well you don't have to get along with all of your relatives, right?" which I thought wasn't the right thing to say at that moment...

Then another person who knows about me and my grandma said that my grandmother is old and I can't expect much from her.

Am I wrong for feeling angry? It seems like everyone just downplays what my grandma has done and maybe I'm being dramatic. AM I being dramatic? My mom said, "Why does it matter to you if she's homophobic?" And I said, "Because I also live here. If I lived by myself it wouldn't matter but I also live here."

I know I can't expect much but I would like respect. I would like justice. Everything my grandma does, from her homophobia to her sexually inappropriate behavior to her not wanting to confront my other perpetrator who molested me and convincing my mother to not do anything, has been pushed under the rug.

Am I wrong for feeling angry? I feel like a horrible person. I just want to know if I'm wrong...Thank you and sorry for the rant...