shezbut,

Nightmares and flashbacks have a way of striking at the worse times. Trauma doesn't have an expiration date. It's unfair and a deep injustice, but the fact that you are in counseling and working through the trauma means you have a very resilient spirit I know there are rough days and rough ones to come, but just remember that you have survived a lot. You have no obligation to send any of your abusers anything let alone a Christmas card. Reserve your time, love, and effort for people who love you, nurture you, and support you. <3