I'll give my family this, at least it took them a while to come around to this train of thought and voice it, this time: You see guys, all of these diagnoses I have are made up. I'm just simply a whiner who has no will to change my life around. I'm just looking for an excuse and a so-called doctor gave me one. I must've really wanted to be labeled all of these things so that I could sabotage my chances for a future in law enforcement and EMS. Yes, I must've really wanted to drop out of school but needed an excuse to do so. I also craved attention because I almost killed myself. If I would've really wanted it, I would've gone through with it. And if I would've gone through with it, I would be the most heartless/selfish prick, like they always knew I was. I'm just selfish, lazy and delusional to my own lie. That's what this is.

Oh, and did I forget to tell you that I can control all of this? Have a flashback, "Mind over matter." Have a depressive episode, "Mind over matter." Have hallucinations, "Mind over matter." Feel like an impending doom is on the horizon, "Mind over matter."

Mind over **** ing matter. That's all I need to do to get "better", because obviously nothing's wrong with me in the first place. If it's not physical, it's not real. I'm just a selfish, attention seeking, self obsessed disappointment that needs to grow up. No wonder I haven't amounted to anything! I just need to be happy when I'm suppose to be happy! That's it, that's what I need! I need to forget about my trauma and "let it go" instead of having nightmares like a three year old!

Oh my god, all of my problems are solved! It's such a mind opener into things I've never thought about! I'm cured, guys! All of my problems are solved! Thank you, thank you so much you ignorant ****s for making me realize that it's all just "in my head" and all I have to do is tell myself it's not real! You're all real life savers, really. Thank you.