When I think about my situation, I cannot help but blame my parents. My dad has never been loving unconditionally. He yelled at us, and even beat us when we did something not to his expectations, like not getting an A as school. Once he told me to go and die because I didn't do well at the university. I cannot forget all these moments when he tries to be nice to me now, when everything seems OK. All he cares about is money and education. He has never cared about how we feel. He wouldn't hesitate to criticize us in front of people and embarrass and humiliate us.

My mom is the same. All she cares about is cooking, cleaning, and washing clothes (of course beside shopping and talking). She has never respected and loved us, and expressed love in a personal way.

Also, both my parents aren't very social. They are difficult to deal with, and always in conflict with others. I don't remember we have ever been visited regularly by another family, or my parents visit regularly other families. My dad has always thought other people are his enemies, and he told us that repeatedly.

I know I'm responsible for my life now, but I feel I'm established in a way of thinking which is beyond my control. I don't want to have kids, because I don't want them to be treated like that and feel the pain I have experienced.

The problem now is that they want me to feel guilty that I'm far away from them. Maybe they helped me financially, but they hurt me a million. I'm not successful if that was my dad's goal by being strict with us as he claims at times. Actually I consider myself a failure in life. People of my age have families, kids, cars, and homes. I still don't have a full-time job. have never been in a relationship. have no friends. Don't own a car or a home. I sometimes get into heated arguments with him because of these things, but he wouldn't say that he did wrong. I'm the one who is ungrateful to them, because apparently parents are always right.