I feel anxious and then try to convince myself of the logical reasons I shouldn't feel anxious and I usually still feel anxious but hope it will pass soon. I also struggle with feeling like I want to do the same thing back. Like, if he doesn't want to spend time with me I don't want to spend time with him. (Even if I do).
If he pulls back at all (aka wants to do something without me) I kind of panic and want to push him away so that I can prove to myself I'm not dependent on someone b/c I hate feeling anxious b/c of him.
I know this all sounds a little jumbled and confusing but he is a really great guy, and I used to feel so much more stable and level headed than I do now (anxiety is a recent thing in my life) which makes this all the more scary and confusing for me... I don't want to feel this way and I know it's not logical.