I have a really hard time believing people when they give me compliments that I usually dismiss them. I tell myself they are just trying to be nice. I think the problem is that I believe so strongly that I'm worthless, that everyone hates me, that I'm disgusting, and that there is nothing good about me, that I think anything other than negative comments are just lies. I do, however, easily believe the negative things. I consider that proof to my beliefs.

I am, however, able to hear some of the positive comments more than before. That's some kind of progress, I guess. It just feels extremely uncomfortable, like I want to crawl out of my skin. Hearing compliments more is not an all the time thing though. It depends on my mood.