NO one-- not a single soul IRL-- know about all this going on. My husband and I guess myself too-- put on a pretty good show when others are around. ugh.... seems awfully familiar..... (just how it was when I was growing up )-- "oh everything is great and fine"....

I don't know how to thank you all for your replies/support-- I don't reach out IRL so this means so very much to me.

Thank you all.

mandy