I also bought all kinds of novelty foods.

My mom's birthday is Christmas. I think we'll visit her in her filthy, smelly apartment where she is so sick she should be in a nursing home and can't even eat anything. It'll just be me and the boys. I'm separated from h now and don't even want to look at him. Holidays have always been tears and hysteria for me with him anyway.

I guess i'll give the gifts to mom, dad, and the boys. I can't give candle sets to them. I guess I'll save the candle sets for my three girl friends, who I'll give their gifts another time.
They won't be giving me anything. We never exchanged gifts. I don't want to put them on the spot and make them feel like the are obligated to reciprocate. But I do feel very grateful for their friendship, so I think I will give them the gifts to show my love.

And that's it. As for husband, I don't want to have anything more to do with him. He'll probably give me some gift offering, and I think I'll refuse it. The best gift we can give each other is our freedom.

Oh, and I'll give a small, token gift to the women in my torah study group.

And a birthday/christmas gift to my neighbors.

But there will be no celebrations. I have not been invited to anything by anyone.

And I send cheer and good wishes to all here on PC.

Oh, and for the rest of my family who live far away... I have sent gifts in the past. They never send me anything. They say they do not want to celebrate anything.

Maybe I'll just send gifts for the few babies of my cousin and my niece.

IDK, maybe I'll send them all gifts anyway.

It's hard to feel like giving when I am so miserable. I guess that is all the more reason to give.