(((Pfrog))),

I have my own small business and I do a lot with ponies and children. I have trained both ponies and children for many years. I have known from a very young age that a pony is NOT a baby horse. To me, it's so fundamental and basic. But, one thing I have come to learn is how a lot of people in all different classes and educated levels don't know the most basic. Also, these people have no idea what is involved with my part in how they get to experience my ponies and they tend to think ponies just come out of the box so to speak the way they are when they experience mine.

I know you struggle with complex PTSD and you have suffered because of the lack of knowledge of others be it parents, or siblings or different people that have crossed your path in life. Your personal traumas that you experienced where you suffer from triggers and all the symptoms that are so challenging mean is that you have experienced too many people that simply don't know HOW to respect others.

Now, anyone can spend a lot of time "learning" about what victim mentality is and what abuse and neglect means and does to a human being. But, that is a lot like me not only knowing the basic/fundamental about how a pony is not a baby horse, but also knowing a lot more and yet what I know is not going to change what others don't know. And in my case not only did others not know the very basics, but they could not even recognize the value of what I had and the value of what it took of my time to have the quality of ponies I had. After all, how could a person even begin to respect what I had when they don't even know the very fundamentals of what I had?

The same is true when someone develops PTSD, the most a lot of people know about the challenge of PTSD is "oh, you mean that thing our war vets come home with". So, in all the time you have put into learning and healing and understanding your own challenges, is not going to change the lack of knowledge and understanding of a lot of other people you come across in your life. That in itself can be triggering and lonely.

You have been fortunate that there have been other human beings that not only made it a point to learn how you struggle but have written books about it along with ways sufferers can gain more knowledge about how they suffer and develop ways of coping and managing the symptoms they struggle with. Yet, the world is full of people that will NEVER even think of reading these books or even think of understanding the fundamentals. Instead, the reality is that most people/human beings live in their own little worlds, even ones that are supposedly educated and can speak really well and write beautifully and have some kind of specialized way to thriving.

My therapist, actually two therapists now have told me to remember that just because a person happens to have letters after their name doesn't mean that person actually knows enough to understand and help "you". Well, this was after I reached out for help and instead of getting the help I needed I was diagnosed wrong and instead of being helped ended up only being hurt even more.

Actually, when I sit and think about my past, that was something that challenged me over and over again in my life. The individuals who were supposed to "know" how to teach, how to understand children, how to "help" and "understand" FAILED me. And unfortunately, I was blamed for THEIR LACK and INADEQUACIES.

So, my point in posting this to you is to remind you that no matter how old you are, the more you learn and know, it will increase your ability to recognize the more others simply do not know. So, what you need to develop is your understanding of developing a personal way of accepting what you cannot change that is actually understanding more about how so many people can be critical and hurtful. This is very difficult when someone struggles with the affects of PTSD that has resulted from this overall "lack of knowledge" in other people around us.