I'm so, so sorry this happened to you. Of course you are uncomfortable around them, at a young age they scared you out of your mind. I think huge emotional, adrenaline filled physical responses leave some memories etched on our minds in a way that stays quite vivid. Logically, you are being completely understanding and forgiving but in your subconscious mind, the fear and anxiety you felt remains. I think posting about it will help you. I will be thinking of you today (as I frequently do). You didn't do anything wrong; rather than that you are more forgiving about it than many people would be. I think being forgiving will help you in the long run as will talking and posting as well.