feeling low today,this morning it didnt help when a support staff who i hate with every fibre of my being was on shift with me,so i slept in i felt like rubbish,i got up at 2pm but he kept overloading me constantly talking with big words and making me feel ill,thankfully the next staff came on and i like her;she knows i dont like constant interaction,especially when she can see me focussing on something unlike the other staff who likes to hear himself talk in intellectual speak.

i feel very numb and have no hope for my future,i have spent every moment since i woke up on an autism forum trying to distract myself.