The most disturbing aspect of DID / dissociation for me is not being in control all the time. It truly disturbs me that sometimes alters take over and act differently to me, and certainly different to the image I have of my self that I would like to preserve. I am intelligent and focused, and when blank / triggered / child / other alters present in THIS body - which people perceive to be ME - I find it embarrassing, disturbing, shameful, and humiliating. I hate it.

Another thing I hate - prior to this year I had my '**** together' and I was successful in my job and study. This year a work situation has ruined that for me, and now dissociative issues have returned full force. I am losing time again and failing at parenting, studying and working. It angers me. I anger me. I am annoyed I don't have my **** together better.

What aspect of dissociation are you grateful for?