Dear Xenko,

I'm so sorry I failed you. I'm VERY SORRY for having breached your trust over AND OVER, AND OVER AGAIN. I WAS SO WRONG ABOUT YOU. I misinterpreted everything you ever told me. I was having a bad time in my life and I slipped back into the drug world. That's why I flirted with HER, that's why I NEEDED HER TO LOOK UP TO ME. In order to get HER approval I had to betray YOU. I was so wrong to sacrifice you to have my OWN NEEDS SATISFIED. I WAS A SELFISH MORON.

I'M VERY, VERY, VERY SORRY I LIED TO YOU REPEATEDLY. I LIED TO YOU FOR YEARS. I lied because I needed to feel important. I lied because my life was so dull I needed EXCITEMENT. I lied for self-glorification.

After realizing what I'd done to you, I finally sought help. It took years for a therapist to knock some sense into me. I AM FINALLY READY TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH.

T