I don't want to go into graphic detail about certain things. I was sexually abused by my father starting at 3 years old. My parents divorced and my mother cared more about her pain than taking care of my siblings and I. My sister is 8 years older than me, my brother 6 years older. My sister took care of me, until my mother kicked her out when I was 8 years old. I was left to care for myself at that point. My mother was neglectful. She spent more time staying the night at her boyfriend's than anything. She would leave me overnight with no food. I remember being terrified. I didn't know how to get a hold of her, or if she was even alive. There was no food in the house. There was also emotional abuse going on. I was sexually abused by boys in my neighborhood at 8 as well. In middle school boys would corner me and do things to me. When i was 11, my brother began physically abusing me, and my mother did nothing. He tried to kill me one night as well. At 13, my mom sent me to live with a friend's family for 3 months b.c. I was failing school. They were verbally and emotionally abusive. No matter how much i begged my mom to come back, she made me stay a year and a half.

At 15, my mother became very controlling of me. I felt like I was suffocating. She tried to sabotage any healthy maternal relatiobship I had with someone.

At 21, my boss was sexually abusing me for 1.5 years. I was too afraid to say anything. I also convinced myself that maybe it was my fault.
The majority of my abuse was from my childhood. Now it's trying to live with the damage that's been done. So mich damage. These are only the things I remember. There is so much from my childhood that I blocked out. Dissociation was my main go to then.