I'm sorry you're struggling. With the "noisy head" do you have a PRN/as needed medication plan that helps you manage the racing thoughts? It is a good sign that you are having some good days though, so that is hopeful and something positive to focus on. If there is something going on in your life that is making you feel more emotional, maybe once that passes or is taken care of, things will naturally fall in place (if in fact, that's part of the issue). Just some things to consider. I hope you feel better soon!