I'm going to keep this very simple.

I'm 42, male and no marriage or GF that has been pretty much a recluse my entire life dud to self esteem issues. I feel this has all added up to my current situation that I am sure most people have went through.

I tend to hang out in public places like doing WiFi and things; Target, Starbucks, stores ect ect, because I am a recluse and a loner that enjoys being around people to make life feel less lonely. However I get attached often to people I don't even know the names of; the workers at starbucks that I talk to often, the places I get lunch and dinner often, ect ect... I form simple and fun relationships with them....I get attached I suppose and when one leaves I have a hard time with it. I don't cry(I have once though) but I get a very deep sense of sadness over it. I will never see the person again, they move on like I was never there....it sucks and I wish they could all stay.

Just found out that one of the workers here at target that I like to talk too, is leaving and moving far away. It's not like we are close enough to exchange FB profiles or anything....it means once they leave that is it...I will never ever ever see them again. I am happy they are moving with their life, but it makes me miserably sad they are leaving.

Make any sense? I don't know....just had to get this out.

Thanks for reading.