I'm glad that you are planning to share this in your Saturday letters. Sharing came help make a problem feel less huge. Of course this one is still big but not as huge as it is without sharing it. I hope you find a way to get out of this episode and make any future episodes that you may have less severe.
If it means anything, I sometimes wish I had a magic wand that I could just pass over all of us to make us all feel better and more stable mentally. But, your T and I don't have that kind of power. So, keep sharing your thoughts and feelings with T and here. It helps to share it and hear others share their experiences.