Hello puzzclar

I'm so sorry about all the suffering you're going through This emotional rollercoaster is terrible and very confusing, especially with your diagnosis

Depression holds back our cognitive abilities and keeps us buried deep down where we feel completely lost and unseen, but whatever depression is telling you about how unworthy you are isn't at all true! And on behalf of everyone here I'll say this, we're all proud of you for not seeking addiction to solve the problem! This means you're trying and are hanging on with powerful tolerance

We are all here for you, and you'll never be alone as long as we're still breathing! Anytime you need someone to listen to you vent off, we got your back!