It's so flipping complicated, or it at least it seems like it is. I was brought up in a pretty strict Christian household. Father was a preacher. No sex before marriage. My wife was very experienced by the time we got engaged...23 years ago, fyi. We waited until we got engaged. I had such mixed feelings about that I eventually turned it down which made her feel so bad about it and herself. A rocky start eventually became a rocky ride.

When bipolar really hit in my late 30s and I became hypersexual, things really heated up in the bedroom. Women were really responding to my sexual energy...sounds kind of lame, but it's true. Then the affairs. Women on business trips, women from twitter, women around town, women from work. Unprotected sex. Public places. Not consciously, I had sex with exactly the same number of partners that my wife had before me. I always felt intimidated and jealous of those guys.

Now, very medicated and just so flipping tired of the complications I've given up trying. I'm hopeful, though, that when the kids move out we'll get it together.

When we have it, it's hot for a little while but I have trouble climaxing which is fine with me, but it really bothers her. Yeah, counseling is what really needs to happen. Oy veh!