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Originally Posted by venom0706
I am 23 and my mother passed away a few days ago (at age of 57).
I feel simply terrible. Nothing like that had ever happened to me before. I was too young when both my grandfathers and grandmothers passed away. Learning that and having to go to the funeral was devastating for me.
And I'm starting uni again next week so I have to get my stuff together really soon. I can't postpone it due to finances being on the move. Right now, I feel terrible...
And to think that the last 2 times we spoke on Skype only for couple of minutes (we rarely spoke more than 4-5 minutes a week for the last 2 years). Last 2 calls she wanted to talk to me out of our arranged talking time (I live abroad) because she missed me and I simply ignored her. We had a very complicated family and I was being too cold to her in the last couple of years. I wish I wasn't that cold to her, she didn't deserve it...
I now feel empty.
Just wanted to share that... Thank you for the spent time.
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Awe..don't feel empty. It is of no ones fault your relationship was however it was. You loved her..she was your mother. My children don't talk to me but I know they love me. And they know I love them.
I do kinda know how you feel..cause reading your post..makes me think that I should go to my parents today (they live close) but my immediate reaction is NAH..not today..too much drama there.
So I would feel guilty if something happens to one of them too...my Dad is not doing well either.
Try not to beat yourself up...focus on what you have to do..because most of ALL...ALL mothers want the best for their children regardless of the relationship status. Do it and she will remain proud.