That's what my support system thinks, that I should go back. But I'm afraid of the unknown future if I go back. I already went once, what will happen to my job, my kid, if I go back a second time within just a couple months? I know it's silly to be so scared. And the most ridiculous part of all, I'm afraid people will think I have failed somehow.
My therapist and psychiatrist are both aware I'm still struggling, although I'm not sure to this extent. I've told them I don't think things are working, but they want me to keep trying. I have an appointment on Monday.
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New Diagnosis: Borderline Personality Disorder, because they can't make up their minds.
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