I feel like I'm always filled with rage at everything... except I don't have anything to punch... And I'm afraid I'm going to seriously hurt the next person/thing that will give a reason for... for... I DON'T KNOW!!!?
It's like this... see... if I had the power to concentrate my rage I feel like I could blow up a planet with it! And I don't know why!! Noone is bullying me anymore... everyone thinks I'm pretty normal... (except my english teacher... she knows...)
Maybe... maybe I'm thinking too much about how worthless I am as a male person... you know... I feel like a stuttering, blushing stereotypical japanese schoolgirl whenever I'm around women... BUT HOW DOES THAT EVEN MAKE SENSE!!!!
Or maybe... it's the Meaning of Life that's bothering me... (My "research" lead to the conclusion that the meaning of life is to find people to be happy with, but that's quite difficult when all I do is go to school and stay home [since there's no classical music or tap water at parties...])
PLEASE!!!! IF YOU READ THIS! SAY SOMETHING!! I'm alone... and sad... or is it emotionlessness... I don't know anymore... I don't know anything anymore... *chucke* It's ironic really... I was always the one praised for knowing everything... at the time that was my source of self-esteem... now... now I feel like everything I know is worthless... that I'm... worthless...
But I've think I ranted enough... If you've read it all the way through here... you have my thanks... I don't feel confortable talking about these things with my friends... sometimes I think they aren't even my friends, but the friends... of the person I pretend to be...
Sorry... I was ranting again...
Well, I think that's about everything I wanted to say...