My heart breaks for you. I didn't realize I was abused either....I thought everyone went through what I did or something. I was always told how spoiled I was and how lucky. I don't think anyone knows what that does to an abused kid....to call them spoiled and lucky. Around age 15 I had a breakdown and the cops asked my friend "what is wrong with her" and she said "she's severely abused". Actually I was freaking out because I was a victim of a violent crime about 30 minutes before and I don't know why my friend said the stuff about being abused. It she did and it opened my eyes a tiny bit. Flash forward DECADES and I'm just now realizing the trauma I went through. My moms always known....my best friend....my husband....but not me.

So I can understand that part. I'm glad you got away. I hope you find a way to heal the wounds inside you. (((Hugs)))