"Suicide by cowboy" is making a new victim ,once they pull the trigger they will never get you out of there head, it may seem like the end of your suffering as we know it, simply because the dead don't come and tell us what's next ? how horrible is the cowboy gonna be living with there pain plus all of yours when they find out about why it went that way , no I am not trying to lay a guilt trip on you , that's not my intention ,I just know you are stronger and smarter than this , talk it out ,work it out , just get it out , you are worth more than the cost of all the bullets in the 300 million guns out there ,don't sell yourself so short or more correctly let deppression cloud your mind to the point of believing it, when it says "go give up" . I am the worst motivational speaker ever ,but I am a good listener if you need to vent or dump some emotional garbage cans out ,PM me if you need to talk I'll listen .

Misterpain