8 years now, he just wont stop. I can write pages and pages of his and his controlling ways of him and his girlfriends ways. They touture me and my children I have friends, but only share 10% of what goes on because no one believes someone can be so horrible and that it has gone on so long I have a caseworker. On my 5 on in 8 yrs I just have no more in me to want to start over with them and then bam!!!!! I feel so lonely .... so overwhelmed....so horrible that I just hate life, people, I try to pick my life back up, do things that make me happy, then its like he senses it and throws something at me. its a constant up, down struggle. NO ONE NO ONE understands, my mom justs yells at me, the kids have put up protected walls. Try to date, hahahha, my insecurities go crazy, he does something and im numb..... im either over the top, angry or numb inside with other guys More and more I just hate my life