The Klonopin really helps with the anxiety this causes. At first it worked too well but that wore off and it's just fine. Me only calmer. Still seeing their havoc but I think I learned something really valuable about myself today which might be very helpful so it might all happen for a reason like my mom always says. Seems random mostly. But we are assigned our roles at birth it seems. "Little boxes"

Yeah, the therapy is all a bit weird. I feel judged even though she's probably as nice as a person can be.

I'm really messed up in ways I cannot talk about on this forum. Maybe some of it, someday. But I accomplished a lot considering. It's almost that questioning my reality stunted me. I'm worse rather than better for knowing but it had to be done or else ya know. My husband is a professional and we both want me home whenever it benefits me but if I'm dangerous to myself (never to others)then I go IP. As my husband is trained he can take good care of me even when I'm depressed. It's better having him there than some stranger and you don't get one on one treatment from a professional like I can with my husband. That is why they released me last, because my husband could provide more support and care then they could. They couldn't give me one on one from a trained professional.