I realize I have offended people. I realize I've scared some people off and am too much right now. I've tried to calm down with posting but it's getting more obsessive and I'm sharing things in not ready to share and it's keeping me triggered over and over and I need to find something new for my wavy mind.

Someone put me on delete and I think I know why and they are right and I am sorry and I doubt they will see this but I said it.

I think I hurt many people and I just don't see myself clearly right now.

So I'm taking a vacation and hope to come back and see you all again soon. You all helped so much and made me cry many tears of gratitude. Unfortunately I'm just not well enough to post. I told myself if I got to a certain point I would stop before saying things I regret but I passed that point weeks ago.

I hope I can start fresh when I come back. We shall see how it goes. So I'm not saying goodbye, just see ya soon.