Had the injection before. It makes speech near impossible for about 48 hours and will of course render me written-speechless. So, if I go silent, that is why. Feeling amped up, prob lack of Benzos. Will have some in an hour. Have friends coming so hopefully their company will stop me going too crazy tonight. Been very up all day but tend to crash at night.

Scared I will lose it and get the injection. Feel the madness rising.. very weird feeling.