Maybe this is midlife crisis I don't know.

I'm married, settled life, nothing fancy but comfortable, our son is grown now. I work and volunteer, my job is routine, heavy physically (I am fit), but a regular wage. Volunteering is nice (can sometimes be sad because of declining health of people I volunteer with).

I love my husband, things haven't always been easy but he's a good guy. He's older than me and I have always been aware my old age will be alone because of this.

Happiest days of both our lives were when son was little and we had such fun times, now he is grown that is over.

Sometimes life feels so joyless like the best bits are over and nothing to look forward to. I don't think this is depression (was treated earlier this year), rather more a rational awareness. How do I reconcile myself to the fact the best bits are over? My overwhelming mode is flat and tired.