So sorry you're feeling this way right now. Have you considered seeing a therapist?

Many people people take this time to learn something new and fun, or even rediscover an old passion they never gave enough time to. You will need to put your creative energy into all good times that lay ahead. They are there! Your next "best times" await you! Maybe you can take some classes in photography, art, gardening, something you're interested in or were always curious about?

Big hugs.
-Lele