I am a new member here and newly diagnosed with bipolar. I am contemplating applying for Social Security Disability.

I work at home as a medical transcriptionist, so I have no human contact, and I can't even handle that. I got upset and took an email the wrong way (I guess?) and emailed the Human Resources Director and said I didn't appreciate rude emails. (I am unstable right now, going through bouts of mania and depression.) I am beginning to question my judgement and wondering if I am competent to even hold down a job. I am terrified I am going to get fired today and have a lot of anxiety right now.

I was planning to get a lawyer, but I don't know how "bad" they consider you to have to be. I have had trouble in almost every job I have had with my boss. I almost got into a fight with my last boss. I had a screaming match with her and she sent me home and put me on suspension.

My therapist says she is unsure I can work outside the home because of my past problems. Inside the home, I get upset and either get mad or shutdown and just either cry or sit there and stare at the wall for a while. What do the Social Security people expect? I really feel like I can't work anymore and need to spend time getting my meds straight and spending time on myself.

Sorry this is so long, but this is my first post, and I am so glad to meet other people like myself!!!