It totally makes sense to me, Só leigheas. I guess I am pretty much the same except for that I don't think I have Bipolar I because I never get manic. But I also just look for help when it gets really urgent and when I am up I do everything for it to stay that way, drink lots of caffeine, party hard and avoid sleeping, because I just enjoy the time too much.

Wander, yes I am pretty sure I made the right decision, but actually just after ending up in an incredibly hard to take mixed state. Or I suppose that was what it was. I was so energetic but so depressed at the same time, thinking about suicide all the time, cutting and crying and so unbelievably angry. I just got to the lowest point which gave me the power to say: that's it. I stop. For now I really am better, I hope it stays like this for a while. At least it gives me the chance to really keep track of my moods because now they show.