Hello destroyedlife: I'm sorry you have had this distressing experience. I'm afraid there's not much I can offer with regard to what you are experiencing. I know that your symptoms are in keeping with the warnings that are out there regarding this medication. But I don't know if what you are experiencing could be expected given that you took 2 pills. And I also don't know to what extent you symptoms would be likely to be permanent. I really think these are things you need to discuss with a physician.

You mentioned you're feeling suicidal. One thing I do know is true is that depression & anxiety can have a major impact on a man's sexual ability. So it is certainly possible that your suicidal feelings are at least in part responsible for your symptoms. But in addition, suicidal thinking is nothing to mess around with. (I've been there.) Please reach out, in real life, for the support you need during this difficult time in your life.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!