I wasn't sure where to put this.
I had an appt. with my psych nurse today, and she lets me email her things when I need. Lately, the past few weeks I'd been going through a rough time due to a break up. I wrote to her way more often during this time. I even went to the hospital (my therapist said I should go) at one point. I do now realize that going to the hospital is for if you're suicidal, and not if you're just, very very depressed or sad and hurt.

Anyway, my nurse asked me today if I thought i was seeking attention. I was disturbed by this question. It made me think she was minimizing the pain I'd been going through. And I felt accused of being an attention seeker. Although, I will admit that I don't want to be so dependent on emailing her and my therapist. I want to find other and better ways to cope with and get through my emotions. I don't want to be so needy, because I know it can have consequences on my relationships. I don't want to complain all the time. So that part helps. But what exactly is attention seeking? I was looking it up, and it seems like people do things on purpose to get attention? Like with the intent of getting attention. I found this: https://nobullying.com/attention-seeking-behavior/ and I don't feel that the examples describe me at all. Though i know it's an article about children.

I think it's good to realize that...I have fallen into a pattern with certain people, where if I'm experiencing something difficult or triggering, i feel I need them to talk about it with. And I don't have a lot of outside friends to do that with right now. But that they are not always around, and I want to be able to self soothe, and tolerate my distress. Regulate my emotions (I know, they're all DBT words). I guess I just really took offense when she asked me if I'm attention seeking. If that is what I'm doing, I'm not trying to. And I'm wanting to change my behavior because it will help me, and my relationships with other people. Whatever the technical term for that behavior is, I don't know.