I've agreed to the arrangement, so any responsibility for it is definitely on me. My T has asked me several times if I want to continue with it and I've always said yes, so it's definitely on me. (she has always given me the option of having less contact and having it be less expensive or continuing like this, so because I dont want to lose the support, I've always chosen to continue like this).

I do think she's right to charge me something for it, absolutely, but I'm just wondering now, especially having read everyone's responses, if what she has been charging me is unreasonably expensive. I sort of had that feeling deep down, but it's been eye-opening to realize that it's probably the case. I think I'm hurt by it from her. I need to give it some more thought.