hospitals sometimes take away things that just might make you feel good, especially the controlled substances. I don't know how you'd go about getting back on that cocktail. Sometimes, hospitals will put things in your records that would make going back on any controlled substances difficult (just telling you this so you know).

Do you need an antipsychotic? I apparently absolutely must take one, at a full dose, every single day, forever and ever (amen). I take Abilify, so its not terrible, but if you don't actually need an antipsychotic, I'd ask about something else. They're heavy artillery, even the "atypical" ones.

Personally, I did OK on Ritalin+Abilify, but Adderall+Abilify was odd. I felt like my brain was being pulled in different directions. not fun.

I hope you can get safe, effective treatment.