I appreciate it Fizzy and do not find it ridiculous. There is only one thing in existence that would help. It's the one thing I have never had and doubt I ever will. The one and only thing any person with a heart could want. I've only seen ugliness through my life. I am saddened by the fact that there are others like me that have had and continue to have that ugliness. Everyone who has talked to me on here gives me some hope there are good people still around. Thanks again for taking time to respond everyone.

I don't mean to sound so negative and defeated, but what I say about only ugliness in my life is true. How can people that have had so very little good happen, even contemplate positive things? I am down so much because of wanting good but only being met with disappointment after disappointment. I sincerely appreciate the comments you all make. I'm just not used to people actually listening.