I was a sin, from the moment I was born. I've screwed up a lot and I've hurt people. Honestly, just my existence hurts people. I just need the pain to stop, all of it. The memories, the nightmares, this pain in my chest that's unrelenting; all of it needs to stop. I just can't do this anymore. I'm tired of feeling this way and bringing the people I love down around me. I had a therapy meeting today. It's looking more and more like I'm going to IP, soon. I don't want that. I really don't.