Chalmette,

I know you don't want sympathy or empathy, but you have both. I don't know what it is you want to change, but if you're working on it then atta girl!

I just want you to know that you've always had a kind and understanding ear to me and everyone else I've seen you chat with. You certainly don't "suck"!

I know the cycle you're in and I hope it does not last long. Give yourself a break. I hope you feel better soon.