I identify with you. I continue to try very hard all day every day. I do not use bipolar as an excuse ever. I push myself to overcome the daily struggles and I do not give up. Sometimes this is not in my best interest because I get completely overwrought. I look forward to the seroquel at night so I can just go to sleep and forget about it all, But the next morning I'm up ready to face the day. I'm not going to let this illness win.