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Originally Posted by starrysky
How are you doing today? How long does the mania last during the day for you? I don't have mania, so don't exactly know the symptoms you're experiencing, but here's the rest of my message. In terms of yesterday, maybe you just had a "bad day." I find that when I get emotional and depressed, for instance, it's not something I plan for, so don't be hard on yourself. Glad you're going to talk to your pdoc soon. Also I'm glad you're looking for healthy ways to alleviate it. That's proactive. Good for you. I'm curious to know why meditation doesn't help you. But. It's really none of my business if you don't want to share. I just was having difficulty with it myself and am learning there are many different ways to meditate, and that was a relief to me. Have a good day.
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I'm ramping up gradually. I feel that I'm on a trajectory for a true episode. I don't think it was just a bad day in this case.
I have a whole other thread on my spiritual issues. To sum, when I'm manic I believe I have special powers when I meditate. I do have some spiritual gifts there, but some disturbing things happen. I don't think they are necessarily psychosis, but I don't like it. I researched it and many people have experienced this. If I meditate this evening, when I lay down to got to bed, I see strange faces through my eyelids....like, ocular images, not images stirring up in my imagination. I'm not saying it's not my imagination, but it's real enough to be alarming. There are all sorts of theories about the phenomenon, but it all sounds like it could be BS to me. I'm spiritually open minded, but I've never figured out any positive use for this experience. I'm afraid to talk to my pdoc about it. I don't want him to think that I'm crazy lol.