Hey guys. I did a little research, and the top solution to this is to break the mania. I scheduled an emergency visit with my pdoc tomorrow. I've resisted certain meds because of side-effects and tomorrow, I'm going to tell him to give me what ever he wants to get me even if it means risking another panic attack (more geodon, for example).

Maybe you ladies (and bipolar ladies struggle with his as well) will understand this better when someone else reaches out with this problem.

Mania, not more failing.

Break the stigma, y'all.