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Originally Posted by CloserToTheMid
Self forgiveness is hard. My wife was the victim. she is working on forgiving me and I a making a living amends. What's hard to explain ....REALLY hard to explain is that people with MI are victims of their own illness sometimes. When I came to. I was horrified at what had happened....traumatized. That couldn't have been me. And because it's hard to understand, I feel a weird sort of discomfort in forgiving myself. Like, I made my bed, now I have to lie in it.
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I can definately understand this mentality. Not everyone is capable of understanding. I was cheated on a few times so I'm very aware of the pain on both ends. But like I said, lack of insight, judgement,certain delusions mixed with the wrong place at the wrong time is worrisome. But knowing what is happening and having insight, with the help of your wife should really help you out. I hope you receive all the support you need and then some extra to tide you over.