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Originally Posted by TrailRunner14
I've shared this in other threads, so if this is something you've already read, forgive me.
Last week, on my way to meet with my counselor, I experienced a "time loss" driving, and wound up somewhere else. It was not far from his office, but I have no idea of passing the street I should have turned on. When I realized where I was, I could not understand how I got there. That's never happened to me before.
My appointment with him is this Thursday, and I'm worried about it happening again. All the "what if's" are circling around in my thoughts, and of course I'm thinking "worst case scenario" which is quite disturbing.
We were talking about it last Monday, when it was time for me to leave his office. I was nervous then about the drive home, and still pretty shook up over it happening on the way there. I remember laughing and telling him I could turn on the navigation in my car and set it for home. Right now that doesn't seem too funny.
Does anyone have any suggestions, that would keep "me" there? I don't understand what happened and I don't know how to make sure it doesn't happen again Thursday.
This is really bothering me! Any suggestions would be very appreciated!!
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for me this was my normal. short version every time I encountered a trigger an alter would take control to handle that which I could not. sometimes that meant minutes, hours days went by with out my realizing it, waking up in places, towns and cities and not knowing how I got there. this happened to me since before I was 5.
as a child my parents/ foster parents always made sure my name and address was inside my clothing and other personal items, that way who ever found me would be able to get me back to where I needed to be.
as a teen ager I carried a wallet/ purse that had identifying information in it so that if need be those around me could help me to get back to where I needed to be.
as an adult before I was integrated I also carried identifying information and an emergency card that would tell who ever around me how to contact my family.
when I would become aware and not know where I was I would locate a public place (store, hospital, police station, school....) where I could use the phone to call 911, they would send someone to my location and they would help me to return home or contact my family who would help me to return home.
even though I am now integrated sometimes I do space off to the normal dissociative term called highway hypnosis. because of this I do not drive a vehicle.
even though I am not integrated I sometimes do space off to the abnormal dissociative terms of depersonalization/ derealization disorder and dissociative amnesia with a specifier of dissociative fugue where I may be out walking and end up not knowing how I got someplace. therefore I always carry with me a fully charged and active cell phone and emergency identifying information to my treatment providers and my wife.
in general most people including me uses their own grounding / self calming / self nurturing techniques that work best for them. what my treatment providers and I have set up together is what works for me.
my suggestion is if this continues to bother you, contact your treatment provider, they will be able to set up an emergency plan that is right for you, in how you should be handling this in you.