My pastor/boss is so supportive. He has clinical depression so we check in on each other from to time. He knows that I'm struggling with the stress of the coming church events (adult choir program, children's program, two Christmas eve services with 6 soloists and three choral pieces). He asked if there was anything he could do. I said that I'm all in with the coming services. I do not want to back out. Seeing the doc tomorrow, maybe he'll fix me up. So he gave me Christmas day service off. Found a replacement for me. I'll worship with my family. That only happens once or twice a year. I left our home church to take this job. And they stayed behind.